Eternally Damned - Chapter 23: Edward

Edward

What the hell just happened here?

I had scared Isabella. I knew that, but then again, she knew how I was before she decided that she was going to come with me to Italy.

She had seen me kill before. The lightning bolt incident springs to mind. And not to mention that she knows I kill humans on a regular basis.

So what could have sparked this reaction from her?

Why did she get so worked up over the fact that I had killed James and Victoria? I let the third one go. Does that count for anything? It should seeing as I’ve never let anyone go before.

It just makes me wonder what she wants from me.

She knows what I am and what I do. She knows that I kill other creatures that walk on this planet, including vampires. It’s my job to keep them in check. She knows that I kill humans to sustain myself. She knows all of this and yet when she sees it, she doesn’t seem able to comprehend what’s going on in front of her. She knows all about me because Carlisle had explained some of my history and I had filled in a little more. Not enough but still, it was more than others knew.

Most of all, she knew that I love her.

Did she expect me to change? I couldn’t change. Even if I was capable of it, I wouldn’t want to.

This is who and what I am. I might not know where I come from, but this creature is who I am.

She said that she couldn’t live without me but she couldn’t live with the monster that called me its home.

Well, she was going to have to get used to doing one or the other.

Because the monster isn’t just inside of me.

The monster is me.